Urm. Yeah. Okay.
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I'm going to sound like a total dork, but I've been hit with a huge boulder of nostalgia and have the urge to dwelve back into My First Fandom, aka Yugioh.

Urm. Yeah. The YGO fandom has changed drastically from what I remember it being, and patterns of characterization are vastly different then they were before. I'm looking for some good old-fashion writing, otherwise known as old fics that were written six years ago and THAT I CAN NOT FIND.

SO IF ANYONE REMEMBER THIS FIC, I WILL LOVE YOU FORWEVER:

It's a rival gang story, of sorts. I don't remember much, but it had the common YY/Y, YB/B, YM/M, S/J pairings. I believe it starts with Yugi walking home along a dark alley, walking past The Big Bag Bunch (Yami, Bakura, Marik, etc). At one point I think Yami shows up at Yugi's school with a knife strapped to his pant leg, and Marik and Malik may or may not be having a secret affair. URM. Yeah. That's really all I remember. And I SWORE I had it stored in my favorites list, but I can't for the life of my find this fic, so if ANYONE knows what story I'm talking about, please help. D:

And my tired ramble is over.

G'night.

-sleeeeeeeeeeep-

Since I should be doing something more productive, I decided to waste time with a meme. Enjoy.

( Pairing Meme: Multi-Fandom Chaos Ahead )

I'm becoming a Transformer whore. Srsly. DX

And why aren't there more sub!Optimus fics? -cries-

aslkfesv;lksnca;lkn/

And nows I go back to writing paper.

I was listening to the Wicked soundtrack today, despite the fact I've never read the book or seen the musical, and I know most people know the storyline of the Wizard of Oz. I'm curious of how many people have even seen the movie.

Better yet, how many people have actually read the book?

It's become such a pop icon that most people know the whole yellow brick road and ruby slippers (that were actually silver in the book), but most people don't even bother going back to the original source.

Hm.

I've been rather nostalgic these last few months; it's probably due to everything that's happened this last year to me. Nothing horrible: just life.

It just makes me think back. You know that I remember My First Fic? Or, what I consider My First Fic because it was my first slash/yaoi/BL fic. I remember it because I read it in a rush right before I left for school, unaware of the idea of Boy/Boy pairings. I had to catch the bus, so after skimming the first chapter and realizing the double masculine pronouns was -not- a mistakes, I spent the entire day thinking about it.

When I got home, the first thing I did was find that fic again.

And poof, my first foray into fanfiction happened to have been my introduction into the realm of slashing and I've never gone back.

And that first fic? Moonlight Sonata by Difinity.

Told ya I remembered.

Oddly enough, my first real foray into manga (as opposed to televised anime) was Gravitation. I can seem to have the ability to ease myself into culture shock (at the time) fandom.

This was also way back when mainstream BL was nowhere near as common as it was now. The most hardcore thing you could buy was Gravitation. FAKE might have been out at that time, but other than that you were stuck with series like Demon Diary or Eerie Queerie (and isn't that just the must degrading translated title?). This was a few years before DMP came out with one-shots like Desire or Only the Ring Finger Knows. (Heck, DMP was still DMP and not whatever it is now.)

Anyway.

Just my ramble for today.

Happy Thanksgiving for those in the States. <3

[EDIT]... WHY DO I ALWAYS SOUND SAD HERE. WTF. I think it's because I'm alone for the holidays right now. :( But life will get better; I get to see my family in a month. :) [/EDIT]

I'm in class, writing in my blog about how to write a blog?

Blog + Academic Class = Brain Disconnect. For some reason, I can't get around the idea that for a serious academic course, I need to learn about blogs.

Go technology.

Supernatural 5x09.

Crowley.

LEGIT GOOD OMENS CROSSOVER OPPORTUNITY RIGHT FRICKIN' THERE.

-fangirls-

Supernatural 4x18 is. Awesome.

 I could kill for a Bumblee stuffed animal.

Right.

Now.

For some reason, I can't do lj cuts properly. Until I figure out the problem, I can't post anytime of fic or drabble like I had hoped. 

 Dear God.

I'm officially in love with Bee/Sam.

TF is officially the kinkiest fandom I adore.

I need help.

;___; BEEEEEEEE.

 I need to do something that is stress relieving. I want to sleep. But I'm too worked up to even manage that because of some motherfucking piece of crap who doesn't have enough balls to fuck a worm. I'm tired of being the nice one; I'm tired of being the understanding one; I'm tired of being the one who never says a fucking word to their face as much as I want to.

I'm moving across the country in three months. I'm saying goodbye to all these sorry asses and I'm going to brag to the fullest because I no longer care about sparing someone ego.

FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. 

 ( Rant ahoy! )

 Hm. I'm feeling... sad. Kind of.

I guess, I'm feeling more disappointed than anything. Just. -sigh- I dunno. Just needed to let it out somewhere. I don't want to bring my friend I'm talking to online down so. I guess. I dunno.

This was suppose to be one of those evenings that you dream about when you're a little girl. You imagine yourself as a princess, with your perfect prince and your perfect friends to laugh and cry and have fun.

But. I guess it was just... meh. Not bad, but not what I wanted. I had resigned myself to mediocre awhile ago, but I guess now that it's over, I was still hoping for something spectacular. I just. Wanted something more?

I need to get ready for bed.

Goodnight.

 I am thus very very tired. Bah. I didn't sleep until about... 6AM? <.< Woke up around 3PM. Nice way to end the year, huh?

Not sure I'm doing anything for New Years but I never really do. I'm rather sad though; there won't be any fireworks in our town this year due to budget cuts. It's understandable since fireworks are an expensive recreation for the city to pay for (especially since they only last about ten minutes in total). But either way, it's still rather sad. I've watched them almost every year since I was little, but I guess I'll just be watching some on television. ;.;

Or not. I might play Final Fantasy VIII, which I have, embaressedly, not finished. I think I'm around halfway through though? I'm only on Disc 2 but according to the guide I'm using, it doesn't seem I have a lot of sections left. Final Fantasy VII took me about 70+ hours to finish yet I'm only at about 20 hours on FFVIII. Hm. Oh well, I guess I'll figure it out.

God, I love Squall. So much. He satisfies my not-so-inner uke-lover. -swoons- I can just imagined him all trussed up and yummy looking for Seifer. -dreamy sigh- A girl can dream.

Shit, I need to read Pride and Prejudice sometime in the next... five days. <.< I dun want to. D:

 Shiiiiiiit. Essay. Fuck. 

Fuck YES.

Yes, I am a liberal democrat.

So, Obama. Fuck. YES.

Take that BITCHES.